This is my story of good gone bad.I lost my leg due to a bad operation but accepted it as life has to go on.But what came with it I never dreamed could be.I left a life of drugs & achohol after my kids were born and began a new life,a hard life.I became the person I use to be even without my leg.But because of a scam and money I lost my house.Because I was left alone due to my sons father death and my ex-husband going to prison for life,my life was taken away.Because of a scam as so I lost my pets due to 3 deaths of three of them without medication,and a few bad operations.My son lost his schooling due to having to move,even we were not on the evection,I fell without my leg,and once again another operation.I'm trying to heal my heart & mind but things just won't somehow begin so I write my story to ease the pain.All through my life I have had my heart broken the first time with my father molesting me as a child then finally raping me at the age of 17.I left everyone...

September 6 2009 Today was my great grandma's last birthday she will ever have. She has been diagnosed with terminal lung cancer. She has only 2 more months to live.I watched the candles on the cake light up her eyes, as she cried and said " This will be my last birthday cake ever". She sat at the dining room table, so upset that she couldnt even cut her own cake. Our family gathered around to comfort her. Thats when i asked myself how do you comfort some one who knows that there on the verge of death. We cant tell her that it will be okay and that she's gonna make it, because its not ok and in the end she wont be alive to say she defeated cancer. Yet arent We all like my great grandmother? When i realsed this i felt terror strike me. Whether it be two months or 2 years we are all going to die one day. Its not the dieing part im terrified of. Its what happens to you after death that scares me. Do we go into an eternal sleep? Do you go to heaven or hell? Do we go to ano...